15/03/09 zzz the confusion ,the dissatisfaction

2days ago the worst thing happened. just found out that nicholas and michelle were together.. pissed me off obviously. felt a knife at my back. ouch... thats not wats pissing me off. the thing pissing me off is that nic dint tell me that they were together that long. made me a fool to continue pikat her.i thought he was my friend. he said that i am ur friend thats y i dint tell u to hurt u. then i went wtf if u were my friend u would have told me instead of making me a fool. ass. later he sent michx. oh she took all the blame whatso ever who gives a shit already. ass. then next day farewell party for eve. thought michx dint go so can calm a bit. then pula she got no tuition then come pula. even more pissing. whole day emo adi.. who would have thought eve had to call him u know the 1!!!. then my life got worst. so dam iritating. need to calm also cannot. lucky got eve and bibigun there zzz. if not im dead. some more morning go play bball che lim go remind me back pissing like shit la e mddkdfkjdi( slamming the keyboard) arghhhhhhhh! pissing like mad only.. then now i dunno what to do. she's gone. but its ok. but i lose a friend. thats just sad. and my back is killing me though to the stabbing.who would have thought that this would happen to me. i know my friends did. they dint tell me they were together too. some friends i've got. jeez~. some more yesterday went bahamas damansara clubbing dance show down. lost dam badly... because of me the team screwed. couldnt focus though to the stabbing. the stabbing is not bout michx. its bout friendship. michx is her decision too choose. i cant force her. but friendship that has been abused will not be denied by me. nic ur gonna pay for this.. for not telling me earlier. maybe this is the sign of god of telling me that she's not the 1. there is some1 else. but its just pissing. that many of my friends dint warn me. this shows me the true nature of them that i didnt know. they would reither help them than me. they dint want to help me by telling instead of me finding out. it was the worst thing ever. that pain on my back. it will not heal that easily anymore. this is my 2nd time. my 1st was mile. but this is too much. if i was the person be4. the case of many on 1 will come back. but that will ruin my future. sadness trembles more. my life is no more what was before. my life will change. nic take care of her. or not imma kill u. literrally taking a blade and poke through ur back up to the heart. not by metaphore. i mean the real thing.The song for this post is suppose to be How Could This Happen to Me or untitled by simple plan. both are the same song.