This is my life.my past my present and my future.

18/11/09 haizz so many days passed including my sad sad bday T_T

2009-11-18T06:00:00.000-08:00

wow today shocking read get poly blog then duno wth happen. eva come my house dance with me bla bla bla. my bday that time sad coz tak dapat experience like st punya bday. all promises to buy me present also all bull shit yada yada yada.. i should learn to be evil and not buy people presents anymore.... T_T sad hahaha its ok. wtv la. so long dint blog again. lazy blog. belum get my wire. stupid hp having pictures. bla bla bla. cant send to computer. so again no pictures again.. hahah i think there will not be readers anymore. and thankx zhee meng for the wishing that u post on cbox. thank you and good night T_T yawn

1/11/09 wpw really really dam long@

2009-11-01T01:31:00.000-07:00

ok guys im sorry for the long long time dint post ya... its because im too busy and too lazy to blog due to games, work, dance, and especially kao lui@@@@.
but still its still wrong. anyway yesterday which is 31/11/09 siew thong's birthday. we gave her a surprise birthday party in mv. she was shocked i think... o.o (clueless) hahaha and then i got a ticket to aar( all american rejects) guess wat is the code on the ticket? no 12629 hahah funny siao. wanted to take a picture of it T_T so sad on the concert i lost it haizzzz. dam sad. lost my usb cable for the phone to the computer. haizzz cant send pics inside also.. wow i lazy type like around 3 months long of happenings. duno wat happen adi. i think cheer 2009 i recall a bit was nice. went there with who also cant remember... blabla bla. then 1 september a new student came called Daniel Siow. and who would have told he sat beside me. hahaha nvm la atleast better than u all know who. ( here's a hint) | <---------- this thing here. guess ba. hahaha.

10/04/2009 long time no blog

2009-04-10T07:13:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i havent blog due to the heartbreak and the cheering and all. anyway back from where i left off before. hmm now showing my pictures about a really long time ago pic where eve left for us that mid valley pic day.

we all 1 whole family u guys do realise some1 else there right?
me and eve lo

then many pic all with other people la i already put many pics for this post adi from the past to the present yawn. anyway after the party i got nothing to do so teman ka hing to top shop i think cant really remember. i took a picture of him trying out the shirt which he bought dam yeng la.

looks almost like his brother during the yoke nam thing last year

this is me taking a pic while waiting for him me looking away because the guy there say no pictures but already pressed it hahahaha next is a little bit more to the present. this is red house cheer lazy time. the rest of the pic not with me with yue fang at my link ok. guess who this???

Kit Mun Tao Lan!

Kit mun dun wan choi me use red pom pom cover ear lol!
then until 1 more day be4 sports day all so nervous and tensed. hahaha me go late nv got a chance to gel hair. then during sports day. they go marching and waiting jaga beg. then later ask to move bag to red house zone. mahai the pengawas and u guess who? chun yew and xue jun. make me and the other form 5 guy not cheer de run here run there. then later my turn 100m walau malunya no energy run get last omfg!. nvm lo then later red house cheer relax a bit adi. then go cheer lo. after cheer all hopes say red house lose. but who would have thought green house many mistake,repeat too much(no creativity) and messy( when move place). then we red house win lo! url is here for the dance we also do many mistake. but the mistake do jor become advantage i show u 1 when u watch the video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CAvEZ_ghrAY u find for the part where everybody lie down on floor like flower like that. where middle is boys lie down 1st then girls from outside lie down together. its suppose to be all lie down together but by accident make it more nicer lol! luckynya!
then finish sports day all lan ci adi haha. all sing the cheering for red house. Stand Up! its time to shout! Come on crowd! Lets yell it out! We gonna win and thats no doubt. then later emily remix sry say wrong this is we already win and thats no doubt lol!. then all of us go to school wan to celebrate and kfc. but all take many picture lol. see la admire plz? i tengah lcing hahahaha

all of us lo surprisingly ah fang solo girl like in her blog. 1 flower all petals lol if ur wondering why kok keng wearing white shirt is because his shirt wet or something then take the christopher marching shirt lol. later he wear back yerr~

this pic also almost same thing only this time not ah fang but our cheer captain emily! see her face no more fierce jor so happy haha. oh yea our red house cheer girls all cry thought we lose when announcement. naib johan!! jatuh kepada Rumah MM....Hijau!!! then all from cry become happy. because johan and naib johan that time for sure is either hijau or merah. so hijau 2nd then merah sure 1st la hahah!! so happy

the boys without kok keng tengah chao sui with 3 leng lui hahahah

this time got kokkeng jor and this time yap pui yee do blow kiss lol.

our red house cheer famous formation V SHAPE! nice leh? only 1 higher 1 shorter a bit only . hahaha try do la. all red shirt but only kok keng white shirt haizzz....

then later all take off go kfc makan. i tengah emo and worried coz that day that night got competition. what competition is private hahah only some people know =p.

then when we waiting for chicken which joey mum belanja. the girls got nothing to do then take pic of ah hao kena tie bow on head. so cute lol!

then after eat jor. kok keng do very wai thing eww!! he eat the chicken ahh so wai u know 1 full botol of thai chilli sauce. another pic of what he eating eww!!!!

then later i go check on the others lo see they finish eating or not. walau this weiming eat his chicken so clean la eat until really left bones only.
wow no meat u know so hungry i think he.

then late kok keng go out sleep i think i know why must be do so wai until shi teng say then got no mood jor. that time i think he like her. so he no mood that time she also duno.

this is up closed de. nearer she his sei yong face of no moodness.(emoing) (yeehaw virus stage 4 again) omfg!!!
then they got nothing to do again this they tie on christopher head the bow. then he sot jor drink chilli sauce with kai sheng and kok keng. mental people!! omfg!
then later no more jor next day i go practice for scricture union performance. then robin simply taking photoes.
Alex lo but dunno what happen to desmond

RObin here!!

then nothing much adi la. then thursday acc tuition. i only took 1 pic. zhee meng only. because he wear lao fu zhi shirt.

thats him!!

then come to today finally
preparing for S.U. Alex as jesus, robin as child samuel too and raj. i hip hop teacher.

this robin simply taking pictures i think this is deborah i think only la..

duno who sorry.

then later on about kok keng dating shi teng finally today de all next post la. people ajak dota jor sry!!

15/03/09 zzz the confusion ,the dissatisfaction

2009-03-14T21:25:00.000-07:00

2days ago the worst thing happened. just found out that nicholas and michelle were together.. pissed me off obviously. felt a knife at my back. ouch... thats not wats pissing me off. the thing pissing me off is that nic dint tell me that they were together that long. made me a fool to continue pikat her.i thought he was my friend. he said that i am ur friend thats y i dint tell u to hurt u. then i went wtf if u were my friend u would have told me instead of making me a fool. ass. later he sent michx. oh she took all the blame whatso ever who gives a shit already. ass. then next day farewell party for eve. thought michx dint go so can calm a bit. then pula she got no tuition then come pula. even more pissing. whole day emo adi.. who would have thought eve had to call him u know the 1!!!. then my life got worst. so dam iritating. need to calm also cannot. lucky got eve and bibigun there zzz. if not im dead. some more morning go play bball che lim go remind me back pissing like shit la e mddkdfkjdi( slamming the keyboard) arghhhhhhhh! pissing like mad only.. then now i dunno what to do. she's gone. but its ok. but i lose a friend. thats just sad. and my back is killing me though to the stabbing.who would have thought that this would happen to me. i know my friends did. they dint tell me they were together too. some friends i've got. jeez~. some more yesterday went bahamas damansara clubbing dance show down. lost dam badly... because of me the team screwed. couldnt focus though to the stabbing. the stabbing is not bout michx. its bout friendship. michx is her decision too choose. i cant force her. but friendship that has been abused will not be denied by me. nic ur gonna pay for this.. for not telling me earlier. maybe this is the sign of god of telling me that she's not the 1. there is some1 else. but its just pissing. that many of my friends dint warn me. this shows me the true nature of them that i didnt know. they would reither help them than me. they dint want to help me by telling instead of me finding out. it was the worst thing ever. that pain on my back. it will not heal that easily anymore. this is my 2nd time. my 1st was mile. but this is too much. if i was the person be4. the case of many on 1 will come back. but that will ruin my future. sadness trembles more. my life is no more what was before. my life will change. nic take care of her. or not imma kill u. literrally taking a blade and poke through ur back up to the heart. not by metaphore. i mean the real thing.The song for this post is suppose to be How Could This Happen to Me or untitled by simple plan. both are the same song.

10/03/09 yawn sad bored and hoping...

2009-03-10T04:12:00.001-07:00

so fast 7 days past... yawn.. the thing for michx yawn..... bored adi... lazy to talk bout her.... now talk pink... hahah many pic of pink again.. hahah...

1st we have nicholas of course wakakka again pink this time solo!!!

beside nicholas de friend yi tao hahaha

we have my tuition clerk also pink on the same day u know.. omg!! beside her the teacher is the last pic

all nothing do even though exams start jor hahha... hmm bm omg!!!!!!! dam hard!!!!! i stupid go do 2 essay for section b omg!!!!!!!then essay ok la quite simple.. but i sure wrong adi.... my essay go write 900+ words dunno for wat!! sure fail adi omg........ shit hmm moral ahh i dint memorise the definisi at all so sure failll............. faill faill i tell u!! ok back to friday.. hmm exactly 20 people dint come walau!!! all pemonteng antarabangsa so dam pro.
we all like gila nothing do then after recess only play game aiyo so late only decide to play game yawn... got long game though.... back to now.. play a bit game nothing do all say play game with me then nobody on haizzz.... yawn...take pic on the game im gonna play for fun lol... omg so many fails.. today sejarah i go simply write then write get 3 essays omg i dint see soalan... mental adi omg!!! wakakak =p=p=p. then tomorrow gonna take acc and chemisrty omg im gonna fail even more not prepared now playing computer pula haahah XD.

gunz ofcourse yawn... sei zhee meng ask him play that time dun play when a few years later u play geram betul GRRRR!

a noob aka siau li shen wakkaka dam noob right? no la jk

i found this on the paper nice or not?? lol really nothing to do la even though exams are now!!.

wee somemore yesterday go break my glasses after teng suk tuition lol. came to school so damn blind la me. zzzz i know i look like crap. but dunno y kumaran give comment say look better. i dunno whether real or not. so fake sound until zzzz. hmmm tsu chung dunno what happen adi. i dunno whats his problem again as usual.. oh ya todays maths like shit only.. my senior or my friends sister tung kit yee go and tell me 1st term maths dam easy de la no need study also can mostly all form 3 de.. wtf then come out all form 4 so dam hard some more. zzz lazy to blog la dunno what to write.

01/03/09 yawn midnight jor...

2009-02-28T07:56:00.000-08:00

lazy write all the dates. this week was quite ok ok only... hmm lets see monday eat cookies from australia dam nice...

look at it quite ugly a bit right but taste dam good actually
loved it. it came with a nice box too dam nice actually.
nice dog right?? hahahah
hmmm oh yea tuesday went to school cant remember now hahah. went to tuition at mr ong with nicholas. took a pic of nicholas glasses got busted by michx thx to roveen i think. i used nic phone to msg with michelle zzz..

nics glasses looks abit like transformer that glasses right? hahah

then duno when took a pic of myself for fun. lol... haizz kena busted then michelle marah adi.. 100percent ignoreness adi omg!!!sad

me hahah got nothing do in car... yawn!

wee come to today pula aiyo. i mean 28/02/09 la morning went school to clean the class and menceriakan the class. kena word of war by michelle dam dulan adi... sad.... me noob in approaching her some how... total ignoreness and rejected hahah. but its ok. its her choice.. and then. kena call jerk by her in her blog omg. dam wat la.. haizz wtv la. even thursday belanja also she dun wan me belanja need kadine force only can.. yawn... wtv la maybe she got other people adi who knows.. only she does perhaps... people ask me to give up but still i duno y i still hang on to her. something attracting me i need to know y. so i keep going on and on even though i know its hopeless but who cares? love stinks but still it has its rewards some times... haizzz exams coming 1 to kill my self adi. then go tuition lo found back my old chair i and tzejian draw dam nice u know phoenix ....

nice leh? the eyes dam fake the light refraction do get de lol..aiya tzejian initial dint take get the photo hahah poly and nobody hahah.. its Jit kazama. pity the legs quite blur or maybe i dint finish it hahah dun care la....

then after tuition go giant at oug. wow i saw this..

tiffany!! aka asthen toh!! hahahahah

thats all i guess.... dota ah i thought wan play with brandon but he dint on nvm la yawn.... hmmm
this zheng yi ahh non stop ... .... .... only hahah cant tell... yawn see ya...

omg stupid tag thing...

2009-02-28T05:39:00.000-08:00

A.) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B.) Tag 10 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C.) Continue this game by sending it to other people.
I've tagged:no one tagged by siew thong lazy tag other people..

01. What have you been doing recently?
-day dreaming.
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
-not really
03. What had happened at 10.00 am today?
- in school doing clean up day lo.. read siew thong blog la aiyo.
04. When did you last cry?
-not sute...
05. Believe in fate/destiny?
-ya
06. What do you want in your life right now?
- happiness,luck and nature going my course.
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
-nope... put up hood if got but usually nope.
08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
-happy dreams...
09. What bottom are you wearing now?
- shorts.
10.What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
- thank you msg from some1
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
-i dun really know
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
- no way . suresh still having my stupid pants!
13. What was the last movie you caught?
-duno
14. What are you proud of?
-of being able to meet people...
15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
-christmas msges..
16. What was the last songs you sang out loud?
-'I don't know' by me lo not complete lazy...
17. Do you have any nick names?
-yes. poly,icybaby12 and Dark爱
18. What does you last received text message say?
-lazy move by Zheng yi
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
-12 sharp.
20. Are you currently happy?
not really..
21. Who gives you best advice?
-many people from different opinion and subject.
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
-nv tried 1 be4!
23.Who did you talk on phone last night?
- my mother.
24. Is anyone bugging you right now?
-ya.
25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
-not sure.
26. Do you wear toe socks?
-wth is that.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
-an idiot..
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
-Ya.
29. What annoys you most in a person?
-acting noobie.
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
-on her.!!
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
-depends what type of cocaine.cocaine as in sugar yes. cocaine as in drugs no
32. What is the colour of your room?
-White.
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
-not really unless'she' told me too
34. Do you believe in the saying of: talk is cheap?
-dun really understand
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
-Me
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
-no 1
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
-no because nv kissed.
38. Do you have a life?
-ya soon do have none.
39. Have you ever think someone died,when they really didn't die?
-yes my father.read my blog and ull know y
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
-love!!^^
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
-I dont remember.
42. Last time you smiled?
-A few seconds ago. reading siew thong blog
43. Have you changed this year?
-Not sure.
44. What are you listening right now?
-my profile song.
45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
-Nope.
46. Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
-Open of course!!
47. Is there a quote you live by?
-yes. its in my class the 1 i wrote
48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
-Of course!! haizzz
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
> Yeah.
50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
-duno.
51. What are you doing last night at 11 pm?
-dreaming.
52.Are you happy with your love life right now?
-no
53. What song best describe your love life?
-all my profile song.(not finished)
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
-ya.getting ignored
55. Who always make you laugh?
-kok keng.
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
-Of course.
57. Favourite website(s)?
-duno
58. What's your middle name?
-yew gin.(eugene)
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
-sleep. coz its sunday
60. What do you think you are like?
- not sure. ask my friends
61. Who will you choose to die with?
-ask god he sees the future. and touch wood
62. Where have you been today?
-school,tuition.
63. What game do you play often?
-gunz,dota,cs and left 4 dead.
64. Who are you missing right now?
-her lo...
65. If you have to choose between friend and love,who will you choose?
-love 1st then friend!
66. What are you doing right now?
-Doing this tag. OMG!! Is so long.
67. Which primary school are you from?
-sjkc tai thung .
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
-1.Black 2.White. 3 yellow. Hehe^^
69. What emotion you like to show?
->.<,=.='',=),XD
70. What is your life to you? -Great?? I think.
71. If you have something troubling you,what will you do?
-talk with my friends.
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
-michelle.
73. Who do you admire most?
-kahing bro.
74. Which month are you born in?
-november.
75. How are you feeling right now?
-sad and iritated or this tag.
76. What is the time now?
-10.14pm.
77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
-shes mean coz she tag me haha jk
78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
- havent dye.
79. Why are you doing this test?
-Because I was tagged by siew thong.
80. What do you do when you're moody?
-play game to forget.
81. At which age you wish to get married?
-not sure
82.Who is more important to you?
-Family and friends.
83. If today is the last day of your life,what will you do?
-Touch wood!!
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
-no one.
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
- Yeah!! I saw one before.
86. If you have a dream come true,what would it be?
-Erm.. Being a molionaire. Wakaka^^ Impossible man!!
87. What is your goal for this year?
-Get A's for all my exams.
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
-Sure!!^^
89. What feeling do you love most?
Being loved by someone.
90. Do you really think it's global warming now?
-Yes.
91. What feeling do you hate the most?
-ignored and hated.
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
-Sure.
93. Do you believe in God?
-ya.
94. Who cares for you most?
-nicholas.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in you life?
-her. and money
96. What will you bring when you fight?
-my pride.
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
-jolynn and michelle pasal haizz.
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
-maybe emo like tsu chung!!
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
-hurt badly. i know how u feel michelle not asking for ur forgiveness. sry. deeply.
100. How do you feel now?
-privacy invaded.sad. dreaming. angry. i duno...

finished the tag lazy write todays blog ahh. tag enough adi la toodles!

22/02/09 emoing lo..

2009-02-22T06:00:00.000-08:00

lyrics for your call by secondhand serenade.
good song got many meaning.

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

and lyrics for
i'd do anything.

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
Nanana (....)
And I'd do anything for you
Nanana (....)

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

try combining this 2 meaningful songs and emagine how i feel towards u know who.. haizz still thinking of ways what should i do with my messed up life and myself. maybe i should just be a locus eater or maybe i should be a begger i duno. haizzz.. life is uncertain. let nature take its course then shall i. but still nature cant do everything on its own...

21/02/09 sad happy bored im in a mess...

2009-02-21T05:42:00.000-08:00

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1 whole week 16 to 20/02/09

like normal school days lo of course. cheer and michx pasal tuition yada yada dam tiring. mrs francis talked about stress problems bla bla bla. ya of course i dapat wakil red team for running 100m and tarik tali by luck some how. saw many unsual things as well.homework as usual lazy to do lo me. ^^oh ya tuesday during tuition i saw nicholas and yi tao wearing this! double pink people!! lucky not purple

21/02/09 omfg many stupid thing happen

today we are suppose to go to ti-ratana for kerja amal again lo morning we suppose kumpul at siew thong house at 8.30 then i bertolak from my house at 7 go cyber near her house. then pula dam a** the person dint open. got nothing to do then lepak bought a slurpee and this is what it looks like
nice leh? i call it fruit fusion hahah

then later walk to kumaran house for no reason i saw a beautiful scenary and made a video but oo bad cant post it. after that came back down lepak hear music then suresh come teman me a while. or isit pepsi 1st wtv la dun care la. then we walk there lo. after that wipe all the old folks placethen shin wei siew thong and meiyu folding the clothes the black shirt beside is kadine i think cant remember sry bad memory la me

when wan to balik i saw a worker slap the old woman. omfg dam pissing off la. but what can i do... pity her..... then later go back i belanja makan ice kacang who would have thought the famous 1 moved and the current 1 sucks badly.and some kid step my dam leg playing with the crazy kok keng. i have a video of their crazyness too.. omg dam siao and childish though. waste money only. then go swimming at siew thong place. then wow guess what suresh got the wedgie of a life time by me!! dam long siao the underwear pull until almost sampai his head pity dint hook it wasted la. hahah all i know is he said his ass dam pain hahaha.then i balik lo nothing to do go tuition like normal again. thats all i guess. still thinking bout michx la but somehow i find it that she finds me iritation or something i duno what i should do. im admiring this picture nice leh. dun ask me where i got it. i got it from the phone k550i i found on the cab 1.

then i also thinking what i should do also maybe write something like this photo

haizz wtv la...

15/02/09 past valentine's and etc...

2009-02-15T02:24:00.000-08:00

last monday me and my friends went to persatuan kanak kanak istimewa to do many charity work for out moral project thing... among us was me of course,michelle,nicholas,zhee meng, kahing,praveena,sharweena, the lost joey..,connie,allyssa,che lim,my sifu roveen,supoh,kumaran,chun yew if i missed out people im sry then and if i spell your names wrongly sry too. me and the ladies behind ka hing of course. and i think its an alien infront still cant figure out who was that though

me,michelle and su poh and people behind allyssa and connie and i think the half face is sharweena

me,kumaran and chunyew showing body behind hahah of michx and supoh...

me, joey and nicholas

joey, nicolas,kumaran and me

me and michelle(my favourite pic)

etc la... rest of the pics in friendster.yewgin2005@hotmail.com

well time for 13/02/09 last day be4 valentine.

went to buy chocolates ofcourse very excited bout tomolo i think.. some how. wtv.

then hoping i would have a chance or wtv.

14/02/09 finally valentine days

went to school play bball awhile. then fly to 4face again. then come back give chocolates to mich husna and my senior lo ofcourse michx biggest lo.... nothing much happen quite dissapointed kena humilated too.... yawn...... wtv its normal i guess. saw a form 5 dud dam crazy sentimental and bridge crying after got dumped by a girl. running to and fro talking to that girl. i think his crazy a bit though.... and a little sissy. then i think from my point of view i might have happen to me with michx too... but still. i dun wish for that to ever happen to me. or maybe its god's sign to show me that i have no hope. but still i dun feel like giving up yet( the game is not over when the fat lady havent sing)

15/02/09 now la...

so nothing much. afternoon when lunch with my american cousins. and aunt or wtv. his a pain in my fking butt. his attitude like an assh*le. dam spoiled la he. people buy psp around 600+ he go buy psp collector edition siao. 1500 he bought ass la he. then eat lunch nv eat at all smoke so dam much etc. arghhhh dun how to describe that asshole finally his leaving on tuesday... thats the last im gonna see him... then chatted with wymann he gave me advises bout what i should do with michx still... he asked me to move on and its hard for too.. im still thinking dam hard what i should do. i dun wanna lose this feelings and forget bout her.. there are much that i havent done yet. haizz duno la.......... now still thinking what i should do i got dam many pics to post but taking too much time i write this dam post for like 2 hours adi.... yawn... wanna go play adi.... haizz... hope things go to a better with me.. lucky i finished my stupid moral essay. by using reference...

08/02/09 haizzz 6 more days still blur

2009-02-07T20:58:00.000-08:00

Im so confused with my life and my social life. i dunno what to do. everything in my life is at war. my parents. my friends. the people i love. and many new things coming in to my life is beginning to fall a part. what i have hoped and desired most is falling in to pieces. things that i wished and hoped so much are dying. because of this god is paying me back stuff that i do not desire. the things i desire most like love is being repayed back with finding things. what use do i have with all this stuff i found. it doesnt not bring me happiness. a new phone so what. trust me it will be spoiled soon. it cannot be permenant but love is something that we must all treasure while we have the chance.So people who managed to read this. please remember when u have a chance take it or forever regret it like i do. u will try to forget it but still it will always haunt u back for being a coward. im feeling this now and trying to tell people that it is not a good thing. based on military snipers concept. 1 shot 1 kill means 1 chance and thats it. dun take it ur a goner. its similar to love. take a chance before its too late to do so. sometimes if your lucky u might get 2nd chances but not more than 2nd.

03/02/09 today my life went from bad to worst. omg!

2009-02-03T05:27:00.000-08:00

Today i was minding my own business at school thinking of all kinds of crap to do about 11 days more of planning for v' day. still thinking though. after school she was their it was a bit awkward though then. i had to go in a rush coz of tuition.i went to pj old town. for tuition be4 tuition i went to mc donalds to eat. wow the most iritating and f*cking thing happen. my father was having a f*cking affair. i went out kick his canned. and thats where my life got worst. my parents getting a fk divorce. my ass father going to sue. and i still want to kick his ass more. grrrrrr dam f*ck pissing man. my life had already been screwed now its worst.... worst I TELL YOU!. but its ok he wasnt much help anyway. atleast still got my mum and michx. but still. i hope it works out the way i hoped. lets hope for the best of my studies 1st. haizz i shouldnt be blogging bout this this is really personal. shit la.haizzzzzzzz.......... no mood to write anything already. and i thought today was a splendid day. T_T sobs.

31/01/09 last day of january and 14 more days to valentine's day omg!

2009-01-31T06:32:00.000-08:00

oh crap oh crap oh crap. its the end of january. sh*t i havent manage to get hold of her yet. crap what to do what to do haizzz. sad as usual la me. hmm. what to continue with my life. crap duno what to write still. oh yea! today me and my cousins going on a crazy undead killing spree on the cyber cafe. we are playing left 4 dead the mission 1 use lan play de. not the undead (player) vs4 human (player) what i mean is us 4 human vs all undead bots muahhaha crazy and hard. siao we play expert finally made it to 5th safe zone haizz the last 1 cant too hard. too many witch or tankers crap. enough talk bout games finally chinese new year going to over so sad T_T. no more ang pau for me. i got like Rm ....... ( u will never know if u do know u might ask me to belanja or wtv sh*t) well i duno wat special thing to do on 14 february for her haizz. maybe if i dont do it i might be like an a**hole or wtv. suprisingly jeremy so kind to me help me edit blog. im still blur and still dun really find it fun. maybe i could use this blog to sell stuff hmmm lets see. btw i was still wondering when will jolynn give me the dragon that she was suppose to sell to me hmmm.. later go find her. ok this is all for today dam lazy to write the female version i promised Xp hahaa

30/01/09 2 more days till end of january

2009-01-30T01:34:00.000-08:00

Well today i finally got hold on michelle through my cousins msn. her phone broked and my house stupid computer msn crashed f*ked up badly. arghhh.. oh wth. chinese new year ang pau collecting season about to over.? ok this blog is about my life my past my present. my past its like hell. everytime unlucky etc nv have up or down just down all the way im tired of the past now. and guess wat this present life is getting better for me somehow i feel alittle bit happier i have many friends that can help me but not all can help me much. some like chun yew helped me alot. and its getting better somehow. my future guess wat i wish to be rich score in spm. marry the girl i love. nah thats too far. hmm maybe date the girl i like. but the girl i like likes some1 else
pity and sad. ok im out of ideas. yawn.

29/01/09 a few more days to the next month and out of holidays...

2009-01-29T06:41:00.000-08:00

wow after so long of not blogging i feel like writing some stuff now. jeez my stupid computer is going crazy my msn cant use etc jeez... that just sucks.. haizz we had some nice dinner with some relatives wow its so fun and today my cousin from america brought a ps3 is playing in my house. and devil may cry 4 rocks!!! finally finished that game. dante so pro. hahahha. oh yea what happen to michelle? hahah nvm. oh crap this is my worst post ever i dont really know wat to write.hmmm... haizzz nothing much to tell about since its not school. during school days its the best. much to tell about. i still remember the stupid part which ms francis explain how to write a journal to zhee meng hahah.

25/01/09 last day be4 chinese new year and my life hasnt changed

2009-01-25T01:06:00.000-08:00

The female version i was going to write is not going to come out yet. im very lazy. and sry michx for any inconvinence of reading this blog im sry though. hahaha. anyway today i worked my ass out cleaning the house preparing for chinese new year but still i dun get the point why must i clean when we dont have our family reunion here. we have it at adrian's house. not my neighbour adrian. my cousin adrian tan lee jun isit? im not really sure. his pic is at my friendster display friends i think. his 19 this year. the dud that got on magazine be4 dun really know which magazine be4 though. it was last year. he was 1 of the hunks though at yet i still dun get it. he doesnt have a gf. yet so many girls like him. i ask him why dun have gf? he say nobody want. dam lame answer weh. so many girls dig him and yet he say nobody. omfg. boaster. ok next a little bit more bout my pass. last week i think. jeez i hate talking bout her. michx its not u dun worry. Mrs Francis gave an essay and ask us to write about a meaningful person in my life. and i wrote my really really old friend that is a girl. not gf la. i mean a good friend. i wrote hmm should i write? dam lazy la. nvm later u all want to read it ask from me. its in my essay book. (for people who wandered whos the girl name in my essay its tan xue yee) really good friend though. passed away though to stomach expansion. i duno wat its called though. but according to sien ka-hing its hepatitis B i also not sure real or not. ok next. hmm lets see... in the future i would like to ask michx out if thats possible hahaha

24/01/09 a little bit more about my life and ways of a guy.

2009-01-23T21:09:00.000-08:00

31 Ways To Make A Girl Smile
1.Don't hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out
2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
3. Hug her from behind.
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up.
5. Wrestle with her.
6. Don't go hang out with your ex when she's not with you, you might not realize how badly it hurts her.
7. If you're talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over andhug her and kiss her.... Let her know she's yours and they aren't.
8. Write her notes or call her just to say "Hi"... And not just at night after you've already been out with other girls.
9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.
10. Play with her hair.
11. Pick her up.
12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it.
13. Make her laugh, if you can make her laugh, you can make her doanything.
14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.
16. If you care about her, then tell her
17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal(she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she'll treasure it forever), and one of his t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed).
18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
19. Look her in the eyes and smile.
20. Hang out with her on weekends.
21. Kiss her in the rain.
22. Kiss her just for the heck of it
23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.
24. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if it's simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER. it's the thought that counts.
25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)
26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it DOES hurt her and makes her think you don't care, so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don't necessarily have to have hour-long conversations every night but it's nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.
27. Give her what she wants. ANYTHING.
28. Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
29. Tell her she's beautiful, she needs to know her striving is working.
30. Hang out with her whenever you are free and you should be free to hangwith your girlfriend all the time.
31. If u care about her...SHOW her!

I regretted because i didnt do it to michx. haizz sad to be me. my life sucks so much. since i was born til now i nv got lucky be4 nv celebrated my bday until lastyear. suprisingly my aunt came back and remembered my bday and my parents knew. hahah that was the 2nd best thing that happen in my life. my 1st best time of my life is michx. but still i should have done something though like not iritate her so much or be the class fool or something. im so confused. zzzz

heres another 1.

What each kiss means
Message: Kiss on the stomach; be redi,...,
-Kiss on the Forehead; expresing a lov 4 him/her
-Kiss on the Ear; seducing!,haha!-Kiss on the Cheek; cute,
-Kiss on the Hand; I adore yah!..-Kiss on the Neck;We belong together..
-Kiss on the Shoulder;I want you..
-Kiss on the Lips;I love you
What the gesture means...-Holding Hands; We definitely like each other.
-Slap on the Butt; That's mine.
-Holding on tight; I don't want to let go.
-Looking into each other's Eyes; liking each oder,
-Playing with Hair; Tell me you love me.
-Arms around the Waist; I like you too much to let go.
-Laughing while Kissing;I am completely comfortable with you
Advice;Don't ask for a kiss, take one.
If you were thinking about someone while reading this,you're definitely in Love.

still under the process of helping other boys and girls to enjoy their relationship. i hoped munjack did all this be4 they broke. thats just sad and wrong. they were a perfect couple. well imma continue again later on. but my pathetic life some how. someof you might think wats wrong with this dud he should be thanking because he has so many frens he has a home etc. dud i have to earn my money to feed myself. my friends treat like wat an asshole. what else to say. jeez. the girl i like thinks im being perassaan iritating etc. oh what the heck! im hopeless. or whats wrong with this guy u whine and complain to much go get a life change your fucking life or wtv. your life is not managed by god or wtv but its managed by you. haizz i think of all this be4 but still.... not working to my better side...

23/01/09 11pm this is the true story of my sadlife and this is the time i start back to blogging.

2009-01-23T07:12:00.000-08:00

23/01/09 the day im back to blogging since 3 years ago.

well imma blog about my past later for now imma blog about today.
today mrs. Francis gave a topic on bies or language. So the class debated each other (between boys and girls) they had many unusual answers example. why does the word woman or female must have the gender of male as in female has male and woman has man. its like the language is bies to the man gender of the world. so we boys obviously began to get pissed and start fighting back and it came out a stupid answer by the famous wong chun yew. the girls say that many bad words like SOHAI as in so hai. in chinese hai means girls vagina. and bitch involves a female dog. the bad meaning that carries through the word bitch is a female dog simply have sex with other dogs when its mating season is here. so wat the person trying to scold is the girl is a whore that is so cheap and desperate for sex. the girls obviously will get offended. so the boys came up with dick head. bastard etc. i cant really remember the meaning of bastard again. even though mrs Francis said it was a word not foul or wtv.
so later the class began to be chaotic. everybody was debating like mad and talking many crap. finally in my head someone got to stop this chaos. so i thought about the part ying yang the part where everything has abalance. when i raised up my hand. jeez~ siew thong raised it up 1st. haizz because of this debate somebody i like might feel that omg so this is how guys choose woman eww i dun wan to date terence anymore. omfg. i should have just balanced it. like theres a man theres a woman. there black theres white. theres water theres fire. theres sky theres earth. everything in the world has a balance. thats y the term in yoga and taichi has the term ying yang. everything must have a balance. like the body as well. to much food u might get fat,obesity,higher chance to get heart attack. and to little ull get kwasikor or wtv. etc. so everything must have a balance. like theres a time to study and a time to play. u cant always play or cant always study like mad. if i did that i would go crazy. so the people in our class should think everybody as equal. theres gay's and there sure have lesbians. guy that is bisexual, girls that are bisexual. there sure got balance 1. so please whoever read this share my knowledge of saying to the world. men and women are equal. we must nv dominate the other sex because their different. as for the guys who read this might thing omg u bias to perempuan la ur not man u bondan or wtv. and the girls would like oh cant believe theres a guy who supports us. actually i support no one. i support balance and peace. therefore i wish to be known as the peace keeper or wtv. haizz lets hope michelle doesnt read this yet. coz haizz im not done much with this blog.